Dear love of my life,
I surprise myself every damn day. I think things are predictable and I'm not surprised by anything at all but I am very surprised it's you, Connor William Jessup.
When I first watched your show, Locke & Key I was just thirsting like a thirsty fan girl and I told myself, "I don't want you, whore. You do those fake kissing scenes I don't like and I want a guy all to my damn self." I did not want to be another thirsty fan girl who thirsted after a hot guy. I was not going to be that girl, I said. Your fake TV sister already acted shameless for the rest of the thirsty fan girls and that would not be me, I said. And that's when I knew it was you who I had been imagining as my dream future husband. I kept thinking about a guy my whole entire fucking life and I had no clue what your name was at the time or what you looked like, but I knew things about you and what you did, what your celebrity status is. I knew you're not as famous as Zac Efron and that's fine and I felt you fake dating someone for years. I said I won't be with you if you're making the world think you're with someone else who you're not actually with. We don't get paid yet to deal with his level of fame. Once you stopped the fake dating, that's when we finally got together, see.
And then when I saw you painted your nails like I do, that's when I remembered I always wanted a future husband to paint nails with because most girls I know in real life are trash to me so I wanted a girly husband bestie to marry.
I can't believe it's you! I always felt like my person was in Toronto, Canada and I'm in the US. So I said to myself I want my birthday twin in the US. And I did have a sexy ass birthday twin to be with back in the day who everyone wanted us to be together and I played music with him in an orchestra. We both said we weren't meant for each other and didn't want to waste each other's time being in a loveless relationship/marriage.
I always wanted a musician husband but I knew ages ago you wouldn't play any instruments. I did say I want a husband to do a music video with before we met -- and at least you do that, anyway.
I also wanted a husband who I could write a book and TV Show with and film it with, and you're that at least, too, so we can bring our love story to life on the big screen.
No one would believe I even knew where you'd be from back in the day before we met in person. Most people have to hang out with their person in real life to get to know them before they ask a person to marry them. I never needed to hang out with you first to know if you're the right one. I described someone who I wished for as my first, last, and everything and you are all those things I described. I can't believe it, myself.
I got tired of many fans calling Zac Efron "love of my life." I want to be the only thirsty fangirl in the entire world to call a celebrity crush that. I can't believe it, again! I am the only one calling you "love of my life." Most of your fans just send fan love. They don't pretend to be with you. They just say they are in love with you as a fan girl, but I say it as the mother of your children and wifey like love.
People keep asking me how I know so much about you before we talked in real life. I said you're the only person I thought about in every single life time who I wanted to marry not just crush on. Even before this life time, I kept wondering when we would meet again in this life. And that is the only explanation that I have as to how I would even know you are in Toronto, Canada.
Thank GOD we always put each other first in every life time because I had a kindergarten husband crush fantasy and birthday twin fantasy who I could have put first but they weren't my last loves and we all said to ourselves we only want one love and we never needed to have the talk. All three of us knew we were just good friends.
Finally. I am finally with the right person and now I have to wait for you to visit me in this long distance and I know you'll be the one to work things out with.
I kept telling someone my whole entire life, "I love only you even though I don't know who you are or what your name is. I will know when I see or meet you somewhere."
I could never find another love to marry or to love. I have to wait for my absolute right person to be with.
My first wish was to be with a nice virgin guy who knows what he's doing and doesn't need the experience but keeps it in his pants for the right one. I was supposed to be a virgin, too, who never needed any experience, but when I felt you're in Toronto, Canada, I gave up waiting back in the day and the hook ups weren't worth it at all and now I wish I had waited, too, because most weren't with anyone I really liked, anyway. I finally told myself to wait and I was supposed to be a virgin just like you and I am a born again one after waiting 10 years and more. I didn't want to be a 40-year-old virgin, that's why I wanted to lose it back in the day in college.
Now, it wasn't worth it at all. I should have saved it. I think I did. It's still there. I keep looking at myself asking myself, "what the fuck is that?" I looked it up to see what that is on me -- no one ever took my virginity that's how bad most of them were -- I still have it! I can't believe I really am a born again virgin.
There was a girl who did throw this back in my face saying I don't deserve a hot virgin who saved it for only me and she was supposed to be a friend, Erica. I used to hang out with her a lot and I could sense she was always very jealous of me even though I was never jealous of her and just wanted to hang out. I stopped being friends with her because I don't need to be friends with someone who would throw things I did in college back in my face one day.
I knew you wouldn't care my hook ups back then were real but not worth it. You're only a virgin because there was no one decent to lose it to who could keep up with you and that's why you had an easier time saving yourself for me. I had many decent prospects who I could have lost it to. Like I said, I had a sexy ass birthday twin and a lifelong kindergarten friendship who I could have lost it to.
My last fantasy was a guy who likes to paint his nails with me. Didn't think there would be a guy who would like to do that with me until you. I never said your name in my first, last and everything wishes. I just described what I wanted and saw you fit all three descriptions without knowing your name. I still can't believe it.
I knew it wasn't Zac Efron. We're now good friends and that is all. Thank GOD I never hooked up with Draco Malfoy and Troy Bolton.
I love you so so so so so so so much, Connor William Jessup.
And now I know who I kept loving all these years when I did not know your name and I did not know what you looked like back then but I kept thinking about you every damn day before I knew it was actually you when I saw your show, Locke & Key.
Love,
Your one and only real relationship and marriage you will ever have.
I surprise myself every damn day. I think things are predictable and I'm not surprised by anything at all but I am very surprised it's you, Connor William Jessup.
When I first watched your show, Locke & Key I was just thirsting like a thirsty fan girl and I told myself, "I don't want you, whore. You do those fake kissing scenes I don't like and I want a guy all to my damn self." I did not want to be another thirsty fan girl who thirsted after a hot guy. I was not going to be that girl, I said. Your fake TV sister already acted shameless for the rest of the thirsty fan girls and that would not be me, I said. And that's when I knew it was you who I had been imagining as my dream future husband. I kept thinking about a guy my whole entire fucking life and I had no clue what your name was at the time or what you looked like, but I knew things about you and what you did, what your celebrity status is. I knew you're not as famous as Zac Efron and that's fine and I felt you fake dating someone for years. I said I won't be with you if you're making the world think you're with someone else who you're not actually with. We don't get paid yet to deal with his level of fame. Once you stopped the fake dating, that's when we finally got together, see.
And then when I saw you painted your nails like I do, that's when I remembered I always wanted a future husband to paint nails with because most girls I know in real life are trash to me so I wanted a girly husband bestie to marry.
I can't believe it's you! I always felt like my person was in Toronto, Canada and I'm in the US. So I said to myself I want my birthday twin in the US. And I did have a sexy ass birthday twin to be with back in the day who everyone wanted us to be together and I played music with him in an orchestra. We both said we weren't meant for each other and didn't want to waste each other's time being in a loveless relationship/marriage.
I always wanted a musician husband but I knew ages ago you wouldn't play any instruments. I did say I want a husband to do a music video with before we met -- and at least you do that, anyway.
I also wanted a husband who I could write a book and TV Show with and film it with, and you're that at least, too, so we can bring our love story to life on the big screen.
No one would believe I even knew where you'd be from back in the day before we met in person. Most people have to hang out with their person in real life to get to know them before they ask a person to marry them. I never needed to hang out with you first to know if you're the right one. I described someone who I wished for as my first, last, and everything and you are all those things I described. I can't believe it, myself.
I got tired of many fans calling Zac Efron "love of my life." I want to be the only thirsty fangirl in the entire world to call a celebrity crush that. I can't believe it, again! I am the only one calling you "love of my life." Most of your fans just send fan love. They don't pretend to be with you. They just say they are in love with you as a fan girl, but I say it as the mother of your children and wifey like love.
People keep asking me how I know so much about you before we talked in real life. I said you're the only person I thought about in every single life time who I wanted to marry not just crush on. Even before this life time, I kept wondering when we would meet again in this life. And that is the only explanation that I have as to how I would even know you are in Toronto, Canada.
Thank GOD we always put each other first in every life time because I had a kindergarten husband crush fantasy and birthday twin fantasy who I could have put first but they weren't my last loves and we all said to ourselves we only want one love and we never needed to have the talk. All three of us knew we were just good friends.
Finally. I am finally with the right person and now I have to wait for you to visit me in this long distance and I know you'll be the one to work things out with.
I kept telling someone my whole entire life, "I love only you even though I don't know who you are or what your name is. I will know when I see or meet you somewhere."
I could never find another love to marry or to love. I have to wait for my absolute right person to be with.
My first wish was to be with a nice virgin guy who knows what he's doing and doesn't need the experience but keeps it in his pants for the right one. I was supposed to be a virgin, too, who never needed any experience, but when I felt you're in Toronto, Canada, I gave up waiting back in the day and the hook ups weren't worth it at all and now I wish I had waited, too, because most weren't with anyone I really liked, anyway. I finally told myself to wait and I was supposed to be a virgin just like you and I am a born again one after waiting 10 years and more. I didn't want to be a 40-year-old virgin, that's why I wanted to lose it back in the day in college.
Now, it wasn't worth it at all. I should have saved it. I think I did. It's still there. I keep looking at myself asking myself, "what the fuck is that?" I looked it up to see what that is on me -- no one ever took my virginity that's how bad most of them were -- I still have it! I can't believe I really am a born again virgin.
There was a girl who did throw this back in my face saying I don't deserve a hot virgin who saved it for only me and she was supposed to be a friend, Erica. I used to hang out with her a lot and I could sense she was always very jealous of me even though I was never jealous of her and just wanted to hang out. I stopped being friends with her because I don't need to be friends with someone who would throw things I did in college back in my face one day.
I knew you wouldn't care my hook ups back then were real but not worth it. You're only a virgin because there was no one decent to lose it to who could keep up with you and that's why you had an easier time saving yourself for me. I had many decent prospects who I could have lost it to. Like I said, I had a sexy ass birthday twin and a lifelong kindergarten friendship who I could have lost it to.
My last fantasy was a guy who likes to paint his nails with me. Didn't think there would be a guy who would like to do that with me until you. I never said your name in my first, last and everything wishes. I just described what I wanted and saw you fit all three descriptions without knowing your name. I still can't believe it.
I knew it wasn't Zac Efron. We're now good friends and that is all. Thank GOD I never hooked up with Draco Malfoy and Troy Bolton.
I love you so so so so so so so much, Connor William Jessup.
And now I know who I kept loving all these years when I did not know your name and I did not know what you looked like back then but I kept thinking about you every damn day before I knew it was actually you when I saw your show, Locke & Key.
Love,
Your one and only real relationship and marriage you will ever have.
It's every girl's dream to work with one of the hottest guys ever. He would try to keep it professional and fail if I worked with him as his fake TV girlfriend on the set of Locke & Key. This is a PG fan fiction, not real life. His real life fake TV sister thirsted and he didn't thirst back after her. If it was me as his fake TV sister or fake TV girlfriend he would fall to his knees about me because I would pretend like I don't want him when I really do.
Desperation isn't in my vocabulary and that's what he likes and loves: a girl with self-respect and dignity.
Desperation isn't in my vocabulary and that's what he likes and loves: a girl with self-respect and dignity.
Jessica Frances loved to thirst and flirt when she was single. She wanted to see hot and cute hot men react to her inner thoughts to see if they knew what she was thinking without telling them out loud. She wanted to thirst so much so she prayed her future husband who she will be with in real life would be a celebrity husband and then it would be a thirst with love not just thirsting. She was shocked beyond belief her wildest dream came true in Connor William Jessup. She smirks inside her head so this is the thirstiest man of all time from Hollywood. She finally found her match.
I have a lot of fantasies to see which one will finally become real life. My #1 fantasy is turn the hottest gay guy in the world straight and he will be my girlie husband to do girlie stuff with because my friends who were girls in the past treated me like straight trash so I have to do spa days with my husband. I do have friends who are girls who do treat me decently but we lost touch and don't hang out much anymore. I don't hang out with anyone now because my former friend who I used to hang out with was always the jealous type and I don't do real life drama. I cut anyone out who causes me unnecessary trouble. And now I know who I will paint my nails with: Connor. LMAO. Found the culprit who will be my turn the hottest gay guy in the world straight fantasy.
I also want to take hot modeling pics with a future husband so his ass better look like his damn self in Locke & Key. hehehe.
I also want to take hot modeling pics with a future husband so his ass better look like his damn self in Locke & Key. hehehe.
About freaking time I'm with the right person who things will work out with in real life and it isn't just a fantasy, LOL.
